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Wednesday, April 30, 2003
Was able to watch the very first episode of Queer as Folk UK last night. And omigoodness. All I can say is I don't think it will be shown here in the Philippines. But it was really funny and I loved to watch it, mainly because it had British actors and I really love British actors. Actually I just love their accents. Hehehe... That's why I also love to watch this other Brit show, Coupling.

Last night, I caught a glimpse of MTV's special "The Making of a VJ". I just don't agree with what MTV did. They said that they wanted to launch people into stardom. Well when I saw the list of people who made it as finalists, I was a bit disappointed. A lot of the people they got were already famous and or at least known here in the Philippines. They were either local celebrities, TV personalities or members of "high-class society". Why launch them into stardom when people already know them? Why not pick a "total nobody"? Someone who people have really not seen on TV at all? There are a lot of people in the Philippines like that. Sometimes, it just makes you think how pretentious Filipinos can be. They're too obsessed with image, reputation, high society and all that crap that they forget about the more important things in life. Like being true to yourself as an individual, spending time with people you love doing the things you love, stopping to smell the roses, giving thanks to God for giving us another day to live. Thank you, Lord. Despite my situation right now, You have provided for me and You still give me hope for my coming future.

I remember watching a Filipino movie, Tanging Yaman, a couple of months ago on TV. There was a particular scene there that I cannot forget. Actually it was a line. The grandmother was inside the Church praying when her granddaughter came to be with her. While praying, her granddaughter suddenly asked, "Paano naririnig ng Diyos ang dasal ng lahat ng tao? Hindi ba Siya nalilito?" (How does God hear all our prayers? Doesn't He get confused?). Sometimes I do think about this and I worry that He gets confused and wouldn't where to start. And then I remember that it's not a problem for Him, hearing all of our prayers. It just goes to show how great He truly is. And He doesn't just hear your prayer, He tries to make it perfect for you. That's what I love about Him. He knows me better than I know myself.

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This is from This or That.

1. Lying down on the couch, or stretching out on a recliner?
Lying on a couch
2. Going barefoot or wearing soft slippers?
Barefoot, definitely.
3. Eating ice cream, or pizza?
Ice cream! especially now that it's summer!
4. Watching on TV...a classic movie or a reality show?
Reality show. I'm a sucker for it. But none of those The Bachelor, Joe Millionaire crap. Give me Survivor & The Amazing Race!
5. Wearing: blue jeans or sweat pants?
blue jeans
6. A long, soothing bubble bath or a quick, invigorating shower?
7. Furniture: leather, or something more on the fuzzy side?
I prefer leather furniture.
8. Soft, classical music, or upbeat rock & roll?
Rock and roll, baby!
9. Darkness or light?
10. Thought-provoking question of the week: You get married, or otherwise begin cohabitating with a significant other. S/he moves into your place, but brings with them the UGLIEST chair you have ever seen! You really don't want this thing in your home, but SO says it is the most comfy chair s/he has ever sat in, and no way will they part with it. Do you: grin and bear it, or scheme to get rid of the montrosity somehow?
Gotta make sacrifices so I'm gonna stick with it.


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Tuesday, April 29, 2003
This is getting frustrating. My posts aren't getting published!
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This is a new reflection from Fr. Jerry Orbos' book, Simple Moments Book III.

I am a very busy person, but I call my Mama everyday. What's three minutes or five minutes spent for someone who never counted the hours for me when I was a child? It's the least I can do to say thanks for all her love and care, and to let her know I really appreciate her, especially now that she is old.

Usually, it is the same questions and reminders over and over again: "Hello, Jerry? How are you? Your medicine? Are you eating well? Don't work too hard. Get enough sleep. O, sana maraming grasya!" To all these, I just smile and keep saying, "Yes, Ma!" enjoying the presence, the love, the concern of this woman I call Mama.

No big deal.
Call your Mama now.
Tawag na!

--- Simple Moments Book III, Fr. Jerry Orbos, SVD ---

I have a better relationship now with my mom than when I was still in high school (I have graduated from college already). Back in high school, I always thought of her as the one I should fear. I didn't tell her much about what was happening in school and in my life. That's what friends are there for. But slowly, especially in college, I started seeing my mom as a person and as a woman and that's when I started appreciating her as my mother. I talk to her about things that have been happening in my life and even my friends' life! She knows a lot about me now and she tries to tell me some stuff about her also. I don't think we'll ever be best friends, you know, but I'll still be there for her. I'd do anything for my mom.

What about you? What have you done for your mom lately? Have you talked to her lately about what's going on in your life?


A friend of mine sent a SARS advisory over e-mail today. Can't be too paranoid when it comes to SARS because once it hits you, there's no turning back! I'll try to post it here so you guys can protect yourselves from this dreaded virus. Meanwhile, you can visit the Center for Disease Control or the World Health Organization for more details. Check out this website also for answers to your SARS questions.

A couple of months ago, I was "commenting" on the fact that a lot of people I know are suddenly being diagnosed with cancer. And now an outbreak of a deadly virus (that's almost the same as the ebola virus featured in the movie Outbreak. hmmm...). You know what this means? It means we haven't been taking good care of ourselves. Cancer is diagnosed because we do not watch we eat, we do not stop ourselves from smoking, we do not think of preventing ourselves. SARS is contracted because one does not practice good and proper hygienic acts and does not make sure that they have a good immune system. You know, if we all just live a healthy lifestyle, where we watch we eat and we wash/sterilize/disinfect ourselves, we might be able to stop these dreadful diseases to multiply and spread all over the world.
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Received an e-mail from Kevin McCarthy today, a first year grad student from BU COM. He was congratulating me and asked if I had any questions about COM. I can't think of any right now, though. Received an email also from Toshie Baba of Academy of Art College. They got my portfolio and are now reviewing it. They'll be emailing the results in a week.

this week's friday five.

1. What was the last TV show you watched?

Technically, it was Space at the Juice channel but I only caught the last 5 to 10 minutes of the show. So I guess, the last show I watched was the Top 10 countdown at Myx.

2. What was the last thing you complained about?

The girl at the parlor who was supposed to blow dry and set my hair.

3. Who was the last person you complimented and what did you say?

I think my nephew, last night. Can't remember what I said though.

4. What was the last thing you threw away?

The beer of can I just drank.

5. What was the last website (besides this one) that you visited?

I think it was and

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Sunday, April 27, 2003
I bought a new book yesterday. It's called "You Can Make Your Life Beautiful" by Bo Sanchez. I've decided to try and reflect on it everyday by writing my thoughts here.

Can you believe this? At a time when Kerygma had about 250,000 readers all over the country, we only had tow phone lines in our office. And rusty ones, too. Because our phones has the audacity to break down on us. During that memorable ear of our history, if you called us up, and heard a ring - you didn't shout Yabadaboo just yet. Some actually danced the boogie and bought some ice cream at that point, but we advised not to do them yet. Because the phone could have been busted, and all you've heard eas the ringing. And the ringing. And the ringing. And nothing else, except your own scream. Imagine how many callers felt? But here was the real miracle. If you finally heardour receptionist lift up the receiver and say, "This is Kerygma office, may I help you?" we give you the go ahead signal to break down into joyful weeping and dance not only the boogie, byt the cha-cha and tango at the same time. Buy the ice cream we told you and fly off to Boracay. Because you beat the odds. You out-dialed thousands of callers.

Nowadays, I feel that Goes doesn't eat ice cream as often as He wants to. Because everytime He calls us, all He gets is the busy signal. Our hearts receive thousands of calls from our different affections, attachments and ambitions.

This is my suggestion. Keep the number of year heart secret. Between you and God. Please don't share it to the whole world. Let your deepest, most powerful affections be for Him. Alone. And then no one else will clog your line. Not your dreams. Or your idols. Or your other loves. God isn't on a diet. Let Him enjoy all the ice cream in the world.

--- Excerpts from You Cam Make Life Beautiful ---

Sometimes we become too busy that whenever God tries to call us just to talk, we never "hear the phone ringing" because we're too preoccupied with what we're currently doing. I'm guilty of this, too. When I was still studying, I was always thinking about the school and all the things I had to do for my classes. When one thing finished, I had to start with the other. Even though I was talking to Him, I was still preoccupied by the other things I had to worry about. Sinisingit ko pa rin. Kaya feeling ni Lord, pinabayaan na natin Siya, kasi di na natin Siya pinapansin. I realize now that I should have made the time and the effort to keep in touch with Him, just like the ways I keep in touch with my old friends. I should have made the effort when all He really wants from me is a little time and a little kwento. From now, I'm getting a "private phone line" and only God knows the number to it.

I went to lunch with Mel, Ida, Gulo and Yya yesterday. It's been 4 months since I last saw those girls! It was great fun and I'm glad we were able to spend time with each other even for a little while. Speaking of barkada, I talked to Macis the other day. We made plans to meet up (the whole TBC) on May 10 to plan our "reunion" and Ida's baby shower. Grabe. I can't believe she's giving birth on August! That's 4 months away!

I finally got the latest issue of Press. So many new and good albums available once again. Submitted pala my newest article last week to my editor. Can you believe I reviewed 3 CDs and 5 songs and 2 movies for next month's issue? For the June issue, I think I'm reviewing 2 CDs, some songs and 1 book. No movie for now, probably coz I haven't watched any new ones lately.
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Friday, April 25, 2003
I was talking to a friend yesterday and she asked me how I was and I got all sentimental and all that. So sue me. I felt great! God was once again showing me how great He truly was. Do you know that quote about God that goes,

God answers PRAYERS in three ways,
YES and GIVES you what you want;
He says NO and GIVES you something BETTER;
He says WAIT and GIVES you the BEST in His own time.

I've known this for so long and I keep forgetting how true this is. Take for example, just this month, I applied for an editorial assistant job for a new magazine. I went through interviews with the HR manager, the editor-in-chief and the president but unfortunately did not get the job. Obviously, I was bummed out. But not for long. You know why? Because I found out why God didn't want to give me the job. He's sending me to Boston, instead, to study about my lifelong dream. He knows that this has been my dream for so long and I've waited for so long to make this come true and now here it is. And He doesn't want anything to stand in the way of it. He is just so great. Do you know what I mean? He is just great!

I won't let You down, Lord. Not after You've believed in me so much even if I didn't have the same belief in myself or in You. Thank You, Lord. I won't disappoint You.
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Thursday, April 24, 2003
Took another test. Here are the results.

You are a bungalow! Built between the 1900-1950's,
you have stood the test of time, and are well-
loved by many. You appreciate a cozy life, and
surround yourself with friends and family.
Three bedrooms, one bath, your family is very
tight. Chances are you are surrounded by a
hundred houses just like you.

What kind of house are you?
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I was listening to the radio awhile ago and there were two DJs, a girl and a guy, and they were discussing gender issues, I think. They were mentioning about "Miss Right and Miss Right Now". That's just so wrong. I mean, why do we have to justify our gender to everyone else. I mean, that's not the point and reason why we're living in this world right now. If you have to talk and fight about equality, why not fight about equality amongst all people? You know why there's poverty, injustice, hunger and all that? Because there are people out there who think they're better than most people and spend their whole lives showing that to people. There are also some people who don't give a damn about other people and only think about themselves and what they can do to survive this world. But thankfully there are some people who spend their lives giving more to the people who are more unfortunate than they are.

I tried doing this. It's what you call random acts of kindness. Sometimes I give food to streetchildren instead of money. Sometimes I help out someone even if they don't ask for it. Sometimes I volunteer for different organizations and help them out.

What's the point of this? Stop fighting over who's the better sex. If you continue fighting over that, then you're just both the same. You're worse as people. Instead of fighting over the better sex, think and do something to help out those who are less fortunate than you are. Because if you think you've got it bad, you don't, honey. Have you looked at the world lately? People are dying because of an unknown virus. More than half of the population in Africa are diagnosed with AIDS, which still has no cure. The world is in danger of terrorist attacks from Osama Bin Laden & Saddam Hussein. Several bombings have been occuring in Davao, killing so many people in the process. Mindanao is still in danger of attacks from Abu Sayyaf. And 70% of the Philippines' population are experiencing poverty.

Why waste your time worrying about trivial things that do nothing to solve the problems of the world or even teach people to act? If you have to talk about something, talk about that.

Way to go! Your a furry caring, lovable James P.

What monster from Monsters Inc. are you?
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Tuesday, April 22, 2003
Prima Donna-- you rule the show! In short you're
the head whore!

What's your stripper name? (female)
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it's all good

What Dave Matthews Song Are You?
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Omigoodness. I just received an e-mail from the Director of Graduate Services at Boston University and she said, yes I got accepted! Oh this is so exciting. My dreams are really about to come true. Oh goodness.
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Monday, April 21, 2003
I took this test at Very interesting.


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Just received an e-mail from the Academy of Art College at San Francisco. Turns out they haven't received my portfolio and letter of intent yet so they haven't made a decision on my application yet. Grrr....
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Got myself a copy of Fodor's City Guide to Boston. Excited na ako!
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Sunday, April 20, 2003
I love Gene Kelly!

I was able to watch Singing in the Rain a few days ago and I enjoyed it so much that I want to collect all of his movies. I also watched An American in Paris and omigoodness. That man is just great!

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Saturday, April 19, 2003
this week's friday five:

1. Who is your favorite celebrity?

Norah Jones, Josh Hartnett, Patrick Garcia

2. Who is your least favorite?

Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck.

3. Have you ever met or seen any celebrities in real life?

Yup. Mostly local celebrities. There are some celebrities that I knew way before they became celebrities.

4. Would you want to be famous? Why or why not?

Yup. I want to be known as a really great writer/director so that people will do everything to make me direct/write the stories they want to appear on the big screen.

5. If you had to trade places with a celebrity for a day, who would you choose and why?

I wanna be Daniel Radcliffe or Emma Watson or Rupert Grint coz I want to experience being in Harry Potter's world even for just a while.

Was I really accepted?


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I just got back from Tagaytay and I opened my PC agad to check my e-mail. Well I received an e-mail from Micha Sabovik, Director of Graduate Services at Boston University, and she told me that I was accepted to their MFA Screenwriting Program for this Fall 2003 semester. Omigoodness. I haven't received any admission package from them so I find this quite hard to believe. I mean - I got accepted?! Omigoodness! I really cannot believe this.
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Wednesday, April 16, 2003
I'm leaving for Tagaytay in an hour. Can't wait to go back! Hope it's cold there coz it's hot herre in Manila!
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Hay naku. I was at the gym yesterday and I was trying to call my sister if they were finished shopping so we could pick them up already. I called her on her mobile and it turns out she left it inside the car, which means I had her mobile phone! I was in a panic! I quickly finished my work-out, showered, dressed and went to Greenhills where she and my mom were. I tried calling my mom on her mobile but it was either turned off or she wasn't answering it. So I went down Greenhills and was prepared to look for them all over. I was just about to enter the mall when I heard someone calling my name. When I turned around, it was my sister. Thank goodness! Turns out they were eating inside Delifrance when they saw me looking for them. Haay....

I finally got my Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets DVD! I watched it last night with my sister and we were so relieved and happy that we have it already. We were growing tired of the first movie and we wanted to watch the new Harry Potter movie. Too bad the next one won't be released on video til probably 2005. That's still 2 years. Oh well, you can't have them all.
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Tuesday, April 15, 2003 has posted my essay, Pagkakaibigan at Pagtae! You might wonder what one has to do with the other. There are a lot of similarities between this two, you know. Maybe you should read it and find out.
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Went to Shangri-La yesterday and was bored out of my mind. I do not recommend the bookstore and the music store there. Kulang na kulang sila sa gamit. I would rather have gone to Megamall or Powerplant but I needed to get that jacket si Daddy had altered eh. I was able to buy a copy of Gigi and An American In Paris. Hmmm...What is it with classics huh? I seem to be drawn to them lately.

Anyway, I just finished writing the reviews for next month's issue of Rad. Migoodness. 3 albums and 5 songs, took me more than a week to do it! This is really the rock issue for my column coz I reviewed 3 rock CDs and 4 rock songs. Just have to finish the movie review I'm doing. I'm writing Gangs of New York. I'm thinking if I should write about Amores Perros. Hmmm...

I have a new favorite singer, besides Norah Jones and India Arie, it's Alice Peacock and Ryan Adams! Their songs are so great! It's so easy to listen to and to chill out with. That's what I'm looking for really: music that I can chill out to. Although, I do love Evanescence's album, Fallen, even though it's really depressing.

I'll be going to the gym in a little while and then on to SM Fairview to get my DVD of the new Harry Potter movie.

Migoodness. I've been so tired lately that I don't have the chance to think about things. Sometimes I miss that. I miss wondering about the world and the different things in it. I especially miss thinking about people and why people are the way they are.

Oh well....

I'm going to Tagaytay tomorrow. Finally. After 4 months, I get to go back! I'll be leaving for Boracay in three weeks! Yey! Can't wait to go back there and just forget about everything here in Manila.
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Monday, April 14, 2003
Went to the gym yesterday and saw the San Miguel team, including Danny Seigle! Omigoodness! He has got to be one of the greatest basketball players in the PBA now. Ang galing niya! Too bad he's gonna be out until August, I think. I also saw Olsen Racela and I remembered Tin automatically. Hehehe...

Went to dinner last night with Lyn, Liz and Allan. Grabe. Sobrang namiss ko sila. Sayang nga lang coz sandali lang kami nakapagsama talaga. We ate NYPD at the fifth level of The Podium. It was good naman dun. We had the NYPD's Finest Pizza which was yummy and Veggie Lasagna, which wasn't really my thang but it was ok na rin coz nabusog naman ako. And when we got the bill, migoodness! P395 lang! I might be eating there again.

Went to Ink & Stone to meet Lyn there and omigoodness! I wanted to buy all of the books there! But I can't. *sniff sniff* Went to Astroplus and saw all the great CDs that are out now. But I can't afford to buy them also. *sniff sniff* Babaw lang naman ako eh. It takes so little to make me happy. Oh well...I'll be able to buy them naman in the future eh.
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Sunday, April 13, 2003
Palm Sunday pala today. I almost forget. Good thing the church I went to today was selling palms so we were still able to participate in the blessing of the palms. Went to Takayama for lunch with the whole fam. Didn't eat breakfast so I was rather hungry when I got there and was really craving for their weekend buffet. Sina Kuya Jeff were there also and migoodness. Chaos once again coz the kids were magulo once again.

Went to Shangri-la this afternoon and saw the streamer for the Beatles Memorabilia Museum. Interesting. Saw it at once when we got in and we saw that it was charging an entrance fee of P100. Changed our minds. Went shopping instead. I was able to buy this really great corduroy skirt from Tubby. Cost a little too much but it had a nice fit and was very flattering on me. Gonna wear it to the dinner I'm going to tomorrow.

Was in Human kanina when my sis and I ran into Kuya Ryan with his girlfriend and her two kids. We chatted up for a few minutes because we haven't seen each other in weeks. This was the first time I saw his girlfriend's kids and they're big kids na pala. Around 15 minutes after we said goodbye, my cousin texted me. He told me not to mention that we saw him that day in the mall coz he told his mom that he was going to be out of town and not "in town". Tsk tsk. Hay naku...

Saw my former crush there kanina, with his sister ata yun. I haven't seen him in around a year, since I graduated from college. Hay naku... That's all I can say.

Bought the CD of Evanescence called Fallen a while ago. It sounds great but its just so depressing, you know. But I give it ! It's available for P395 only! Cheap! Next CD in line: Linkin Park's Meteora.

I'm watching KC's debut right now. Grabe. Can't believe she's 18 already! Parang she was just a kid and now she's already 18 years old, a lady! Omigoodness! Jericho Rosales is trying to sing John Mayer and he is not doing a very good job of it. Just stop already!

Have been downloading MP3 songs like crazy! Want to listen to other genres kasi kaya I'm asking everyone for good songs. Maybe you can give me some suggestions of really good songs? I prefer songs from the R&B, Soul, Jazz, Blues, Techno and Rock genre but other genres are very much welcome. Just leave your suggestions in the Tag Board.
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Friday, April 11, 2003
The April issue of Radical Radiance is already up. Just went through it a while ago. I'm really glad that I'm back in His arms once again. I can't believe I lived through all that time without God in my life. I just wish I can really make people realize to let God into their lives once again so they can see for themselves how good it is to have God in their lives. I'd like to share this article that Jamee Ligan wrote for her column in Rad.

When Christian Life Gets To Be Boring

What's up with the title? We've reduced Christianity to a label-driven lifestyle. People think that being "Christian" is the same way that some people are punks, skaters, Goths, yuppies, and so forth. Jesus Freak is another label that I wouldn't mind getting, although I believe that labels like these are getting to the point where they do more harm than good. The reason why I think all these labels (Christian, Jesus Freak, whatever) are oppressive is that because it segregates people from Christian to non-Christian to the point where it gets to be elitist and snobbish. I get into lots of situations when people who wouldn't normally approach me if I so much as breathe on them would come up to me after praying or whatever and ask "Christian ka ba?" and be all friendly and stuff after finding out that I am. Please don't get me wrong. It's not because of being called "Christian"; I find great honor in bearing the name of Christ. What really gets to me is that the word "Christian" has been turned into pop culture and cheapened into lifestyle; that it has turned into a label that connotes non-smoking, non-drinking, prudish Jesus Freaks who are not supposed to be "worldly" (yet another buzzword within Christian circles) and who are proud of it, albeit casting haughty eyes at those who are "weak and worldly".

On the other hand, there are those who would consider themselves to be "radical" Christians just because they get the best of both worlds. You hear it a lot, the battle cry is the same: "God is a FUN God!" or "Being a Christian is cool!" Sure it is! I won't dispute that. Even the tagline of this website boasts, "Because Christian life was never meant to be boring." The danger in flippantly treating the Christian life as a fun fad that fades faster than the Macarena, Asereje, and the Tamagochi or the clothes that I throw away after wearing it once is that it lacks commitment or it could be grounded on a passing whim. I could easily do away with it, the same way I did away with my vain ambition to be a zen master by training in Aikido, a musician, a volleyball player (honestly, I tried!), Efren Bata Reyes' female alter ego, an artist, a chemist, a poet (didn't work for me), and stuff like that. It would fade just as fast when heavy metal worship stops being cool.

I was supposed to write about PLEASURE, like where do we draw the line between being rigid, being lax, to simply having fun for this month. Well here's my take: God is the Real Thing, pleasure to the extreme. The world offers cheap, self-serving substitutes like booze, babes, bucks, and clout that we think could make us happy as they take us on a ride, give us a high, but crash and burn in the end along with our vanity.

But isn't the idea that God is the ultimate pleasure too abstract and too far out? Isn't it too… out there? What if I don't believe in God? What if I DO believe in God, but I don't find pleasure in reading the Bible, much more in praying or going to church? What is it to make of me then?

When I first started out, I didn't get much pleasure out of reading the Bible, praying, or fasting and stuff like that. Looking back, it was in loving relationships, warm stories, deep friendships, and selfless acts of giving that blessed my life with meaning caused me to believe in a higher Being who gave all these things for our pleasure. It was in love and in giving that caused me to seek and drew me into a deeper relationship with God, taught me about faith and fidelity and opened my heart to the Giver of all pleasure who gives of Himself as well.

With God, there are no boundaries or limits to what we can do. We don't have to ask, "Hey, where do we draw the line, God?" It's a matter of heart, and if you're heart's seeking, craving, and hankering for God alone, not for good relationships, cool ministries, or the "cool Christian" label, you get everything, for He is enough to fill your soul. How come? It's not in the kicks, or what we can get from God, but it's from knowing Who He Is and His Person. He is a Giver by nature, but if you seek Him for his gifts alone, you are only fooling yourself into thinking you can manipulate God. The pleasure is in Him, in loving Him based on a commitment to do so that would not waver by circumstance. I'm standing on my love for God more adamant and true, and it's never been more liberating.
I'm nearing the end of a month-long media fast as I write this. A month ago, I committed to abstain from watching TV, reading books, flipping through magazines, texting, fooling around with my PS2, surfing the net, even talking on the phone unless it's really important or if it's any of the people I've committed to pray for, you know, fun lifestyle stuff. I haven't so much as read the news in a month, and it was hard and painful at first, but it pried my heart away from the clutches of this world and drew me closer to Him. As the days progressed, I began to know Him for Who He Is and love Him through His Word. I had a glimpse of His Being, and albeit insatiable, His love satisfies.

Just about the same time, my application to Japan was denied, my groupmates and I were supposed to win in a quiz contest if it not for some unjust measures taken by the game master to let the other team win to save face. I got my heart broken and a discipline record to boot, denying my chances of ever getting another scholarship, along with the damning realization that I have a very lousy resume upon taking up ORIENT3 and stuff like that. It was devastating enough to for me to feel like I don't add up to much, and I won't accomplish anything, but in one of the worship experiences I had this past month, the Lord showed me that He is my portion and my delight in this world through a song that goes like this:

Father I will not worry about tomorrow or all of its questions
Father I will just trust you and I will be waiting for treasures in heaven
My heart is with you for there my treasure lies
My eyes are on you, for you are my delight

Though I may not wear the garments of princes
You are my portion; you are my portion
For you clothe me in your righteousness
You are my portion; you are my portion
For you feed me from the abundance of your hand
You are my portion; you are my portion *

Imagine. God as your inheritance and your part in this world, your ultimate delight. You don't need worldly acclaim, big bucks or fame. You have God to fill your lack with living water. This doesn't come cheap, though. You have to commit to seek Him, seize Him, commit to know Him through reading, meditating, memorizing His Word, spend time in prayer and in worship, but it is SO worth it. It has to be grounded in fidelity to love and faith in God, and not on passing whims. Being a Christian in the true sense of the word is not a label; it's an attitude. It's not a fad; it's a heart thing. It means having a heart that seeks for God alone and yearns to please Him and committing to it like crazy. It gets harder when you're in the ministry. Sometimes this kind of bliss may mean your life shining less brightly in this world (pay cut, zero job security, no more facials, foot spas and hair treatments), but when it's Him, it's so everything. You have a choice: Choose to please yourself with the world's pleasures; and you're setting yourself up for pain. Choose to please God and enjoy his delight, you get a life, and you will have it to the full.

* "You are My Portion" by Darrel Evans

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Mom's home already. She's fine except for some scratches on her shoulders and back and a bump at the back of her head. Turns out that bastard got a pretty large amount of money from my mom but my sister-in-law just called and the police were able to recover around half of the money. I swear that bastard is gonna rot in hell!

It seems strange to write my
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Thursday, April 10, 2003
Sorry, Lord. But I'm so mad! He could have hurt my mom! Good thing he didn't because if he did, we won't give him justice. We're gonna make sure he rots here before he rots in hell.
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This world is just full of damn bastards. My sister just told me that my mom got robbed by our gaddamn driver. She was on her way home from the bank when that pathetic excuse for a creature stopped the car, took my mom's bag (with the money) and run like the asshole he is. My sister-in-law went to get her already. Fucking bastard, man. After everything we did for him and this is how we get repayed. The fucking bastard. Asshole! I bet his wife put him up to this or maybe he's been planning this for a long time. That fucking asshole!
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Wednesday, April 09, 2003
Music: All I Need by Barbie's Cradle

I was watching an Italian film last night, Malena, starring Monica Bellucci. It's about a woman named Malena, who lives alone in her house in Italy, while her husband is serving as a soldier in World War II. She wasn't from his hometown so she was always the subject of the old ladies' gossip. She never paid them attention and that was probably another reason why these same ladies continue to gossip about her. Til one day she receives news that her husband was killed in war. People were sympathetic. Especially the men, who lusted after Malena. Unemployed, Malena didn't know what to do to be able to afford the basic necessities she needed. The men in her town discovered her plight and started giving her the stuff she needed, including money, in exchange for a lustful time with her. This continues and she moves on to the big leagues, by pairing up with German soldiers and offering her, um, "service". Pretty soon, the Germans fall and the American soldiers have arrived to rescue the Europeans from the clutches of the Nazis. When this happens, the old ladies storm the place where Malena is staying and drags her out by her hair and starts beating her up in the middle of the town square in front of the whole town and condemning her. The movie is told through the eyes of a "coming-of-age" young boy who loved Malena from afar. He was always "stalking" (for lack of a better term) her and watching her. He never judged Malena and tried several times to talk to her but couldn't.

I just remember watching it last night and when the ladies started beating her up, I just kind of lost it. How dare these ladies do that to her? Even if she became a prostitute, she did not deserve to be beaten up like that. These ladies act like they're holier-than-thou but in truth they're worse than Malena. At least she never spoke ill of anyone (at least that's what they showed) and she never gossiped about anyone. She was just trying to survive. But these ladies never listened. They believed only what they wanted to believe and never listened to anyone else's. Hay naku. That's so typical of present society talaga. They don't have lives kaya they feast on other people's lives even if these other people are not doing anything wrong. Then they form opinions that are based on lies and start believing it. Well, if we continue to judge other people and don't start helping them out when we know they're in trouble, then we will never advance and prosper. That's just - sad. If this continues ad people are not open to one another, we will surely destroy our world.
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Music: Video by India Arie

I came across this other blog. It was supposed to be the blog of
Kris Aquino. I didn't know if I should laugh or what. It was kind of funny in ways but irritating in most ways because it was sort of so Kris Aquino. Nakakainis. My eyebrow was actually raised the whole time I was reading some of the entries.
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I'm reading this thread where people discussing what a guy would do if a girl raped him. Would they make a big deal out of it or not? Here are some of their answers:

*"I don't think so kasi wala namang nawawala sa lalaki. Pero siguro papalag nga siya kung lalaki rin ang manggagahasa sa kanya!"
*"lam nyo ba, just saw in i-witness that there really is such a thing as male rape. mas masakit pa daw yon for them coz they have to deal with the shame, na they're supposed to be macho and all. some guys interviewed even cried. i think much of this circumstances happen in pre-teen guys. women fondle with the guy's organs, tapos they force the guys to touch them."
*"I think it would be a big deal if the act is done forcibly or against the will of the guy! Well, a girl raping a guy is rare compared to a guy raping a girl but it is still a possibility!"
*"It's about time women bring men to their knees!! I'd like to see men to be so demoralized, to be weeping their a$$es off in court proclaiming innocence and to be portrayed in badly-produced rape movies. If ever that does happen sometime in this millenium, I'll go to the premier."
*"Baket, ang babae ba pag ni-rape iniisip pa niya kung gwapo o macho yung nang-rape sa kanya? Aba! Eh kung ganon din lang, magpa-bayad na lang sya, kikita pa sya noh! At ang mga lalake ba, ganon talaga kababaw at ka-manyakis para isipin pa kung ok lang sa kanila na i-rape sila ng babae? I don't think there is such thing as a "worthy" candidate for (committing) male rape, or any kind of rape for that matter. Rape is still rape, it's a violation of your right not to be touched. Sabi nga sa pelikulang Disclosure, "it's not about sex, it's about power." Kahit sexual harrassment ang issue dun, in effect, it's still about forcing yourself on someone else and violating their right and choice. Meanwhile, syempre pag pumayag yung guy o hindi nanlaban, eh di hindi na rape yon."

Interesting answers. But I do agree. Guys still have rights and as long as there's no consent, it's still rape. But it's gonna be hard as hell to prove that guys were indeed raped.

Went to the gym today. Haay. Felt so good. It would have been better if I was able to spend some time in the steam room but there were a lot of people there. And I don't like being cooped up in a steam room full of people. I mean, I like the quietness of the steam room and I get to think about a lot of things when I'm there. But when a lot of people are talking about different things all at the same time, it kind of breaks your concentration and you just want to get out of that atmosphere. Kaya mas matagal na lang ako minsan sa shower mismo. At least dun, mag-isa pa ako.

Watching the Norah Jones Live in New Orleans DVD now. I just love how that girl sings! She's just so talented, you know. And she just turned 24 last March 30! I mean, damn! She hasn't turned 24 and she already has a great album that everyone who's bought it loves and she's won five Grammy awards for the same album! And they're paying her like $50K for her shows! Damn, man. She's just so talented.

Went to Bibliarch awhile ago to check out their book selections. There are still so many books to buy. Marian Keyes books are available there. There's also Diary of Mad Bride (which I can also get at Powerbooks so nevermind). There's The Hours by Michael Cunningham, Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold. My list of books to buy is just so long. It's not like we have a public library where I can borrow all of these books. I just wish we had a public library where I can borrow all of these books. Maybe I should have that as one of my long-term goals. Hmm... Opening not just a bookstore but a a place where people can rent it. Hmmm...pwede.

Texted the other people na pala if they wanted to go for dinner on Monday. Turns out John, Paul, Mel, Billie and Shaps all can't go. Sayang naman. I so wanted to see them eh. I haven't seen Paul and John since Game 3. I haven't Billie and Shaps since Chamber of Secrets. And I haven't seen Mel since we graduated. But it turns out Pat, Den and Allan can go. So that's going to be Liz, Lyn, Ekay, Den, Allan, Pat and probably me din. Dinner at the Podium. How much will that cost me kaya?

Norah Jones is singing Bessie Smith now!

The other schools haven't responded pa rin if I got in to their school or not.

Reading at again. I just can't seem to write complete essay nowadays. Forget about poems and short stories. I've forgotten how to write stuff like that already. But it's nice to be back. Think I'll just be reviewing a lot for now.
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Tuesday, April 08, 2003
I went to the interview kanina with the President of the Publishing House of SPEED. I waited for more than an hour grabe. But the President and I talked for more than an hour. Parang di nga interview eh.

Ran into Michelle again. Grabe. Sobrang funny na. Turns out she's not only from Ateneo and Commonwealth, but she was also from Miriam (HS & GS), Magnificat and Kulit! Same as me! Too much of a coincidence, mygoodness. But I do hope I get this job. I'm so perfect for it!

Eileen texted me kanina. Dinner daw siya, Ekay and Liz on Monday. I so wanna go! I don't know if I can though. Lyn just texted me now if I can invite the others to go. I'm sure all of them can go. Kainggit sobra! Will be texting the others later when I finish with this.

Grabe, lately na lang, I'm always so sleepy. I dunno why. I mean, I try not to sleep more or less than 7 to 9 hours. But I still feel so sleepy when I wake up in the morning. Damn.

Haven't gone to the gym in four days! Damn.
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Sunday, April 06, 2003
Music: Dixie Chicks I Believe in Love
Makes you wonder about the real reason you want to get married. Do you want to get married because it's the natural course to take when you're old enough? Do you want to get married because of security? Do you want to get married because if you don't do it now, you might not get married at all? Or do you get married because you have to? What about you? Why do you want to get married? Personally, I don't know why I want to get married in the future. I don't think about things like that yet. I'm just trying to enjoy my single life for as long as I can. But this is what I know. I want to grow old, and sharing that life with someone I love by my side. That's all I know. Besides, I don't have any guy in mind that I want to marry! Well, except for Josh Hartnett...
Article from Philstar....
I recently had lunch with a girlfriend whose three-year relationship seemed headed for a split. "It's going nowhere," she sighed. "Do you mean you want him to marry you?" I asked, already dreading her reply. "Of course," she naturally said. "I need security; some kind of guarantee." I nearly inhaled my plate then realized that one woman in crisis was all our little table could take. I didn't want to sound unsympathetic but I did need to ask, "What makes you think marriage will give you all that?"

To temper my fast-approaching smugness, I took a trip down Bad Memories Lane. Sure enough, there it was: an image of my own mouth, uttering the phrase "guarantee and security" and two other dreaded words: I need. I said it myself and have heard it more times than I care to admit. Each time, I am reminded of beauty pageant contestants who, when asked why they joined the pageant, routinely answer "exposure." Eh? To what? Dirty old men? The sun? The truth is, they have no idea. And that's the way it is for women obsessed with that mythical relationship tandem: security and guarantee.

The irony is that marriage doesn't buy you security, at least not the kind that matters. In fact, marriage is a breeding ground for insecurity, especially in a woman who has not yet taken hold of herself. If it's financial security you seek, make your own money. If you are a stay at home wife, make sure you know how to earn a living anyway. It helps to know that you will get down on your knees and scrub bathroom floors if it comes to that. As for emotional security, why ask a man to give you that? It is beyond his power. He can love you, even promise to work at it every day, but he cannot put it in a box for you. When you ask a man for security, you are saying he has the power to dispense it. When you do that, you give your power away.

The quest for "security and guarantee" in a relationship is a sign that your love inspires fear, not trust. Security is something you possess within yourself. It always has been. As for guarantee, there is none. Any love that claims to have it is already dead, boxed in, stagnant. Who wants that? What you want is a quiet, enveloping warmth inside you; a gentle certainty that tells you this is the man with whom you want to share the rest of your life; the life that will leave a positive spiritual imprint on the world. You want a firm grasp on your commitment; one you freely give, not one you manipulate him into giving you. The path he chooses to take to get to that point is his. He will offer his commitment when he is ready. When that time comes, he will present it to you with a tenderness that will bring tears to your eyes for years to come. But that is his journey. You cannot dictate its pace. What you need to discern, from within, is if he is the one you will keep in your heart for eternity, through all the pockets of hell life harbors in its seams. You need to know, for yourself, if his soul causes yours to awaken, not shut down. You want to see if the quality of your love will open your eyes not to the transgression, but to the turmoil that brought him to it, when he collapses into bed at 4 a.m., reeking of drink and woman. Through it all, will you strive to appreciate and respect his spiritual struggle?

When you look at him, do you see a man who will let you unfold through the soul-altering challenges of life or do you see one who will whine that you have changed into someone he no longer cares to touch? How can you reduce all that to a singular, all-encompassing, gnawing need for security and guarantee? How can you narrow it down to a symbol that might be packaged and wrapped in a promise? The greater gift is the unfettered heart that has chosen to explore its spaces with yours. One of life's truest pleasures is the celebration of a union whose time has come; a union brought by the natural yet mindful gravitation of one soul towards another; a union that is bound not just by love, tenderness, trust, acceptance and respect, but one that is firmly anchored in freedom.

Anyway, I came across this website called the friday five where they give you five questions to answer and to put in your weblog. Here's this week's questions:

1. How many houses/apartments have you lived in throughout your life?
I've lived in 3 houses: 1 in Davao for a little more than 2 years, 1 in QC for 11 years and another 1 in QC for almost 9 years now.

2. Which was your favorite and why?
My most favorite would have to be our house in Davao. It's so safe and spacious. We had a really big backyard where we had a swing and a mango tree, I think. There was also a backdoor which we used when we went to the neighborhood sari-sari store to buy our favorite Tarzan candy. There was also a tennis court beside our house where my friends and I used to go to every afternoon and just played there, under the blazing heat of the sun.

3. Do you find moving house more exciting or stressful? Why?
Well for me, it was exciting because it was a new environment and new places to discover. It wasn't stressful at all though because I didn't have to worry about anything but my stuff. Now my mom...well that's another story.

4. What's more important, location or price?
Location. I don't want to be woken up in my sleep by screeching cars or shoot-outs or stuff like that. I want to live in a peaceful environment where I know when I go home I can relax and be able to not think about the stressful day that just ended.

5. What features does your dream house have (pool, spa bath, big yard, etc.)?
A pool would be lovely but it's not a requirement. I would want my house to have a terrace/balcony overlooking a great view where I can hang out and chill. I'd also want a big backyard where I can place a little playground for my kids like the one in our house in Davao. If I'm living in an condo unit, I'd want the living room to have, if not a balcony, a big, wide window where I can look out into a great view of the sunset.

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I was reading this email called Things to Think About. It included phrases like:

"God created man before woman because you always need a rough draft."
"Men are stupid. If you forget, they will remind you."
"Men are living proof that women can take a joke."

While reading the e-mail, I keep thinking, Are women turning out to be as chauvinistic as men? I mean, God created all of us as equal beings. But what's happening is that men think of themselves as the superior gender and women think of themselves as the more superior gender. Is this true? I think people are too preoccupied with proving who's more better that we've forgotten our whole purpose here on Earth. I think people have forgotten that we're here to live a life of love and to teach others to live a life of love. It's just so sad.
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I've been reading the message list of one of my yahoo groups and I came across a message about how fun our Blue Roast was. If I could only go back in time, I would go back to March 21, 2002, during our Blue Roast: One Big Splash! That was so much fun. Everyone had water guns and were shooting everyone with and BEER! Oh I wish I had pictures so I can show all of you what a great time we had! I went home that night so wet and when I washed down my clothes and myself when I got home, I was so dirty! But I didn't care. Coz I had a really great time!
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Saturday, April 05, 2003
Being Twenty-Something (This puts it all into words perfectly.) They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they
weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.

You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.

You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem
to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now
you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.

We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
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JESUS and SATAN in the World's Greatest Battle

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. "Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"

"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.
Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"

"And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.

"How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you!! You don't want those people!!"

"How much?" He asked again.

Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your tears, and all your blood."

Jesus said, "DONE!"

Then He paid the price.

To God alone be all the glory, all the honor and all the praise...Amen!
posted by Jax @ 11:17:00 PM   0 comments
Here's some very useful and important information about cancer prevention that I would like to share with you.

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime.

3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumours.

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental, food and lifestyle factors.
5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow, gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumour size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumour destruction.

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.
10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other sites.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it need to multiply.

a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes like NutraSweet, Equal, Spoonful etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses - but only in very small amounts.

b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk and substituting with un-sweetened soya milk, cancer cells are being starved. Milo, Ovaltine, Horlicks are made with milk and best avoided.

c. ! ; Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than beef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones, parasites, etc which are all harmful to people with cancer.

d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits helps put the body into an alkaline environment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach down to cellular
levels within 15 minutes to nourish and enhance growth of healthy cell Enzymes.

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have caffeine. Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties.

12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining ! in the intestines become putrefied and leads to more toxic buildup.

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc) to enable the body's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplements (Maitake e.g.) are known to cause cancer cells apoptosis, that is, induce cancer cells to commit.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger, unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax, enjoy and trust God for healing.
16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular level.
Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.

17. Cancer can be reversed with nutrition, supplements and clinically proven complementary and alternative Therapies.

18. Cancer can be healed by divine intervention of God the Healer.


1. Sugar is a cancer feeder. Avoid sugar. Sugar substitutes like Equal, Spoonful, NutraSweet are made with Aspartame! , a chemical that is harmful to the body. A better natural alternative is Manuka honey in small

2. Milk causes the body to produce mucus. Cancer thrives on mucus. A better calcium alternative is unsweetened soya milk.

3. Green tea has anti-cance! r properties. It is a better substitute for coffee and tea, which have caffeine, bad for people with cancer.

4. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in colour. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt.

5. Meat like pork, beef, chicken contain livestock antibiotics, growth hormones, parasites, etc which are all harmful for people with cancer.
It is better to eat fish, or eat a little free-range chicken.
Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes.

Undigested meat remaining in the intestines become putrefied and leads to more toxic build up.

6. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body's killer cells ! to destroy the cancer cells.

7. Water - best to drink purified water, filtered or distilled, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water.

8. To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).

posted by Jax @ 10:51:00 PM   0 comments
this is an essay i wrote a year ago inspired by my friends. i was in a 3-day silent retreat and i wrote this during one of our prayer sessions.


Ang paghahanap at pagkakaron ng kaibigan ay parang proseso ng pagtatae. Madali para sa iba pero mahirap para sa nakararami. Minsan namamahay ang pwet mo pero minsan ready ka na kahit saan. Tapos, pag tumatae ka na, aba! May sorpresa pa pala! May panahon na parang ang lumalabas sa iyo, lahat na yata ng laman ng kaloob-looban mo. Minsan ang lumalabas yung mga maliliit lang, pero sangkatutak naman! Minsan, ang nilalabas mo yung isang mahaaaaabang tae. Na sa sobrang haba, hindi mo alam kung papaano ito mafuflush lahat sa isang iglapan. Minsan naman parang kumain ka ng champorado at yung ang nilabas mo. Minsan katamtamang dami lamang ang lumalabas, yung mas malaki sa maliliit pero mas maliit sa mga malalaki. At di hamak na mas maikli dun sa mahaba! Madalas din, magugulat ka na lang, akala mo ang dami mo nang nilabas pag tiningnan mo, ngek! Utot lang pala ang lumabas! At ang pinakakainis ay pag akala mo tapos ka na, na-flush mo na ang toilet, nasuot mo na ang salawal mo at ang damit mo, may biglang hahabol pa na minsan lalabas pero kadalasan, wala pa rin. At meron din yung nailabas mo na lahat ng mailalabas mo, kahit na gaano kakaunti o karami, tapos ayaw ma-flush.

Pero pag natapos ka na, ika'y mapapabuntung-hininga at sasabihing, "Haay...success..."

Pag natapos nang tumae, may iba't ibang gawain para alisin ang natitira pang dumi sa pwet. May iba, binubuhusan ito ng tubig tsaka pupunusan, gamit ang kamay. Yung iba, ginagamit ang tissue na pamunas at itatapon sa basurahan. Kung sosyal ka naman, ang gagamitin mo "bidet".

Marahil tinatanong mo kung ano ang kinalaman ng pagtatae sa paghahanap ng kaibigan. Marami. Sa lahat ng ating tahakin at puntahan sa buhay, marami tayong nakakaengkwentro at nakikilalang mga tao. May iba na kahit saan sila magpunta, mayroong nakikilalang bagong tao, May iba naman na parang pihikang namimili pa kung saan siya makikipagkilala. Minsan, nakakakilala tayo ng maraming mga tao at nagiging mga mabuting kaibigan sila. Minsan naman, unti nga lang ang nakikilala natin, mga isa o dalawa, pero sila'y mga "lifetime friends". Pwede rin marami tayong makilala pero mga "acquaintance" lang pala sila. Minsan, akala mo marami ka nang mga bagong
kaibigan, yun pala "one-time affair" lang, pagkatapos wala na. Di na kayo nagpapansinan. Minsan naman sa sobrang dami ng nakilala mo, hindi mo na alam
kung sinu-sino. Meron din yung mga taong nakikipagplastikan ka lang o kaya'y dikit ng dikit sa iyo, ayaw umalis kahit pinapakita mo na na ayaw mo sa kanya.
Iba iba rin ang mga paraan natin para alagaan ang mga naging kaibigan natin. Minsan, alagang-alaga tayo. Binibigay natin ang lahat at marami pa! Minsan
naman, kebs lang. Kuripot ka pagdating sa kanila. Minsan naman, alaga mo sila pero may hangganan.

Sa bawat pangyayaring tahakin natin sa buhay, maaaring tayo'y kinakabahan, nag-aalala, hindi alam kung ano ang mangyayari o kaya'y "excited". Ngunit marami sa nakikilala natin nagiging parte ng buhay natin at naapektuhan ito. Sa Ingles, "every thing we encounter contributes to the shaping of our selves". Hindi nga sila nagiging permanenteng kaibigan at permanenteng nandiyan, pero andyan pa rin sila dahil naging parte pa rin sila ng buhay mo. At sa bandang huli, nagiging "success" ang pagtahak na ito.
posted by Jax @ 10:39:00 PM   0 comments
Lessons of Love

A ninety-one year old woman died after living a long dignified life. When she met God she asked him something that had long bothered her. If Man was created in God's image, and if all men are created equal, why do people treat each other so badly?

God replied that each person who enters our life has a unique lesson to teach us. And it is only through these lessons that we learn about life, people, relationships and God. This confused the woman, so God began to explain.

When someone lies to you it teaches you that things are not always as they seem. The truth is often far beneath the surface. Look beyond the masks people wear if you want to know their heart. And remove your own masks to let people know yours.

When someone steals from you it teaches you that nothing is forever. Always appreciate what you have, for you never know when you might lose it. And never, ever take your friends and family for granted because today is the only guarantee you have.

When someone inflicts an injury upon you it teaches you that the human state is a fragile one. Protect and take care of your body as best you can, it's the only thing you are sure to have forever.

When someone mocks you it teaches you that no two people are alike. When you encounter people who are different from you, don't judge them by how they look or act; instead base your opinion on the contents of their heart.

When someone breaks your heart it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that person will love you back. But don't turn your back on
love because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings will make up for all the past hurts put together. Times ten.

When someone holds a grudge against you it teaches you that everyone makes mistakes. When you are wronged, the most virtuous thing you can do is forgive the offender without pretense. Forgiving those who have hurt us is the most difficult and courageous thing Man can do.

When a loved one is unfaithful to you it teaches you that resisting temptation is Man's greatest challenge. Be vigilant in your resistance against all temptation. By doing so you will be rewarded with an enduring sense of satisfaction far greater than the temporary pleasure by which you were tempted.

When someone cheats you, it teaches you that greed is the root of all evil. Aspire to make your dreams come true, no matter how lofty they may be. Do not feel guilty about your success, but never let an obsession with achieving your goals lead you to engage in malevolent activities.

When someone ridicules you it teaches you that nobody is perfect. Accept people for their merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Do not ever reject someone for imperfections over which they have no control.

Upon hearing the Lord's wisdom, the old woman became concerned that there were no lessons to be learned from Man's good deeds.

God replied that Man's capacity to love is the greatest gift he has. At the root of all kindness is love, and each act of love also teaches us a lesson.

The woman's curiosity deepening, God once again began to explain.

When someone loves us it teaches us that love, kindness, charity, honesty, humility, forgiveness and acceptance can counteract all the evil in the world. For every good deed, there is one less evil deed. Man alone has the power to control the balance between good and evil, but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough, the power is too often abused.

When you enter someone's life, whether by plan, chance or coincidence, consider what your lesson will be. Will you teach love or a harsh lesson of reality? When you die will your life have resulted in more loving or hurting? More comfort or pain? More joy or sadness? Each one of us has power over the balance of love in the world. Use it wisely.

Don't miss an opportunity to nudge the world's scale in the right direction.

-- Roy Nwaisser
posted by Jax @ 9:56:00 PM   0 comments
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they all me a bitch.

When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.

When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart.

It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak up against it, I am defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.

It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.

I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. By God, I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.

You won't succeed.

And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.

B - Being
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself

B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman

haha! next time someone tells you you're a bitch, thank them!
posted by Jax @ 9:49:00 PM   0 comments
This also from an email I got a couple of weeks ago

From the author of The Alchemist, By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept and Veronika Decides to Die.

Thank you, President Bush
By Paulo Coelho

Thank you, great leader George W. Bush.

Thank you for showing everyone what a danger Saddam Hussein represents. Many of us might otherwise have forgotten that he used chemical weapons against his own people, against the Kurds and against the Iranians. Hussein is a bloodthirsty dictator and one of the clearest expressions of evil in today's world.

But this is not my only reason for thanking you. During the first two months of 2003, you have shown the world a great many other important things and, therefore, deserve my gratitude. So, I want to say thank you.

Thank you for showing everyone that the Turkish people and their parliament are not for sale, not even for 26 billion dollars. Thank you for revealing to the world the gulf that exists between the decisions made by those in power and the wishes of the people.

Thank you for making it clear that neither Jose Maria Aznar nor Tony Blair give the slightest weight to or show the slightest respect for the votes they received. Aznar is perfectly capable of ignoring the fact that 90 percent of Spaniards are against the war, and Blair is unmoved by the largest public demonstration to take place in England in the last 30 years.

Thank you for making it necessary for Blair to go to the British parliament with a fabricated dossier written by a student 10 years ago, and present this as "damning evidence collected by the British Secret Service."

Thank you for allowing Colin Powell to make a complete fool of himself by showing the UN Security Council photos which, one week later, were publicly challenged by Hans Blix, the inspector responsible for disarming Iraq.

Thank you for adopting your current position and thus ensuring that, at the plenary session, French Foreign Minister Dominique de Villepin's antiwar speech was greeted with applause - something, as far as I know, that has only happened once before in the history of the UN, after a speech by Nelson Mandela.

Thank you too, because, after all your efforts to promote war, the normally divided Arab nations, at ther meeting in Cairo during the last week in February, were, for the first time, unanimous in their condemnation of any invasion.

Thank you for your rhetoric stating that "the UN now has a chance to demonstrate its relevance," a statement which made even the most reluctant countries take up a position opposing any attack on Iraq.

Thank you for your foreign policy which provoked British Foreign Secretary Jack Straw into declaring that in the 21st century, "a war can have a moral justification," thus causing him to lose all credibility.

Thank you for trying to divide a Europe that is currently struggling for unification; this was a warning that will not go unheeded. Thank you for having achieved something that very few have so far managed to do in this century: bringing together millions of people on all continents to fight for the same idea, even though that idea is opposed to yours.

Thank you for making us feel once more that though our words may not be heard, they are at least spoken - this will make us stronger in the future.

Thank you for ignoring us, for marginalizing all those who oppose your decision, because the future of the planet belongs to the excluded.

Thank you, because, without you, we would not have realized our own ability to mobilize. It may serve no purpose this time, but it will doubtless be useful later on.

Now that there seems no way of silencing the drums of war, I would like to say, as an ancient European king said to an invader: "May your morning be a beautiful one, may the sun shine on your soldiers' armor, for in the afternoon, I will defeat you."

Thank you for allowing us - an army of anonymous people filling the streets in an attempt to stop a process that is already underway - to know what it feels like to be powerless and to learn to grapple with that feeling and transform it.

So, enjoy your morning and whatever glory it may yet bring you.

Thank you for not listening to us and not taking us seriously, but know that we are listening to you and that we will not forget your words.

Thank you, great leader George W. Bush.

Thank you very much.

The author is a Brazilian writer. This article was originally published in Portuguese on the Open Democracy Web site, at
posted by Jax @ 8:39:00 PM   0 comments
This is an email I got a couple of weeks ago.

Subject:Philippines as viewed by Intel GM

Philippines as viewed by Intel GM - The following was written by INTEL General Manager Robin Martin about the Philippines:

Filipinos (including the press, business people and myself) tend to dwell too much on the negative side and this affects the perception of foreigners, even the ones who have lived here for a while. The negative perception of the Philippines is way disproportionate to reality when compared to countries like Columbia, Egypt, Middle East, Africa, etc.

Let us all help our country by balancing the negative with the positive especially when we talk to foreigners, whether based here or abroad.

Looking back and comparing the Philippines today and 1995 (the year I came back), I was struck by how much our country has progressed physically.

Consider the following:
1. The great telecom infrastructure that we have now did not exist in 1995. 1995 was the year the telecom industry was deregulated. Since then billions of dollars have been invested in both fixed line and cellular networks producing a system with over 5,000 kms of fiber optic backbone at a world competitive cost. From a fixed line capacity of about 900,000 in 1995 we now have over 7 million. Cellular phones practically did not exist in 1995; now we have over 11 million line capacity.

2. The MRT, many of the EDSA flyovers including the Ayala Avenue flyover, the SKYWAY, Rockwell and Glorietta 4, the Fort, NAIA terminal 2 and most of the new skyscrapers were not yet built in 1995.

3. If you drive to the provinces, you will notice that national roads are now of good quality (international quality asphalt roads). I just went to Iba, Zambales last week and I was impressed that even a not so frequently travelled road was of very good quality.

4. Philippine exports have increased by 600% over the past eight years.

There are many, many more examples of progress over the last eight years. Philippine mangoes are now exported to the US and Europe.

Additional tidbits to make our people prouder:

1. INTEL has been in the Philippines for 28 years. The Philippines plant is where Intel's most advanced products are launched, including the Pentium IV. By the end of 2002, Philippine operations are expected to be Intel's biggest assembly and testing operations worldwide.

2. TEXAS INSTRUMENTS has been operating in Baguio for over 20 years. The Baguio plant is the largest producer of DSP chips in the world.
DSP chips are the brains behind cellphones. TI's Baguio plant produces the chip that powers 100% of all NOKIA cellphones and 80% of Erickson cellphones in the world.

3. TOSHIBA laptops are produced in Santa Rosa, Laguna.

4. If you drive a BENZ, BMW, or a VOLVO, there is a good chance that the ABS system in your car was made in the Philippines.

5. TREND-MICRO, makers of one of the top anti virus software PC-Cillin (I may have mispelled this) develops its "cures" for viruses right here in Eastwood Libis, Quezon City. When a virus breaks in any computer system in the world, they try to find a solution within 45 minutes of finding the virus.

6. By the end of this year, it is expected that a majority of the top ten U.S. Call Center firms in the U. S. will have set up operations in the Philippines. This is one area in which I believe we are the best in the world in terms of value for money.

7. America Online (AOL) has 1,000 people in Clark answering 90% of AOL's global e-mail inquiries.

8. PROCTOR & GAMBLE has over 400 people right here in Makati (average age 23 years) doing back-up office work to their Asian operations including finance accounting, Human Resources and payments processing.

9. Among many other things it does for its regional operations network in the Asia-Pacific region here in Manila, CITIBANK also does its global ATM programming locally.

10. This is the first year ever that the Philippines will be exporting cars in quantity courtesy of FORD Philippines.

11. The government is shedding off graft and corruption slowly but surely. This is the first time in our histroy that a former president is in jail and facing charges of plunder. Despite all odds, we are still pursuing the ill-gotten wealth of Marcos now enjoyed by his unrepentant heirs.

Next time you travel abroad and meet business associates tell them the good news. A big part of our problem is perception and one of the biggest battles can be won simply by believing and by making others believe.

Doesn't it make you feel all warm and tingly inside?
posted by Jax @ 8:30:00 PM   0 comments
Went to Starbucks yesterday for my Movie Club meeting with 6 minutes to spare to find none of them there. Oh well. I had my lunch of a tall cup of steaming hazelnut mocha and a plain croissant and butter. Then a guy named Marlon came. Goody! A new member. Then they started pouring in. First Edward, then Julius, then Fran, then Hera (a new member!) and finally Trish (another new member!) We had such a lively and productive meeting that before we knew it, 2 hours have flown by. We'll be meeting again next month, on May 17, 2003 for our first regular activity since becoming inactive a couple of months ago. I hope this really works out! Next month, we'll be featuring musicals.

After the meeting, I went to Odyssey to buy the new album of Barbie's Cradle, Playing in the Fields (which is excellent, btw), and was very surprised and delighted when I saw that they had a copy of Norah Jones' concert DVD. omigoodness! well now I am the proud owner of a Norah Jones Live in New Orleans DVD. I love it so much! Norah Jones is just a phenomenal singer. The DVD also includes Bessie Smith, her song that I've been looking for for so long.

Oh man. With all that excitement, I kind of forgot to eat more food yesterday. That one piece of croissant I ate was the only food I've eaten so far and I forget to eat more. That's why when I was at church, listening to mass last night, I was really dizzy. I mean, I was hungry and I was hot (it's so freaking hot in Manila now!). I couldn't concentrate and I couldn't remember what the priest said last night. After the mass, we went to KFC to grab some food because we were still going to pick up my sister and we won't be home for at least an hour and a half and my stomach cannot wait that long anymore. Oh man. When I got home, I started eating kare-kare and rice and thanking God for the food. It was so good! Well, after not eating practically the whole day, I think anything I eat will taste so good. I will never let that happen to me again. Migoodness.

posted by Jax @ 8:13:00 PM   0 comments
Friday, April 04, 2003
Gotta get ready soon. I'm leaving at around 12:30 pm coz I have a meeting at 1p and I'm still sitting in front of my PC. I don't even know what I'm gonna wear yet! Damn. I think I gotta buy more clothes. I am running out of clothes to wear!

I'm listening to Tracy Chapman's You're The One. I just love that song. I don't have the lyrics of the song, though.

Listening to Norah Jones now. That girl has the most wonderful voice! I just hope she comes here for a concert. I would gladly pay money to see her perform live. But for now, I gotta settle for her NOLA DVD, which I have yet to buy.

Another good group is the Dixie Chicks. I've loved them ever since I heard their song, Ready to Run from the Runaway Bride OST. I'm listening to I Believe In Love from their latest album, Home.

I wish I can sing like them. I wish I had a really nice voice. But I don't. But that doesn't stop me from singing my heart out, especially in videoke bars! hahaha! I wanna go to Corinthian KTV again. It's so cheap! P990, sing-all-you-can? That's so damn cheap!

Omigoodness. I'm going to Robinson's Galleria today. That means, TOPSHOP! Omigoodness. They have so many new stuff now that's perfect for the summer! But I don't know if I'll be able to buy them. *sniff sniff*

Just Married is still showing at the Galleria Movieworld. Will I be watching it? Hope the others approve!

Omigoodness. It's already 11am. I think I better get ready. I have to leave in an hour and a half already.
posted by Jax @ 6:57:00 PM   0 comments
Some funny MAID stories I found over the Net.

*Maid is cleaning Bro's room. Bro enters wearing only a towel (kakaligo lang).
Maid starts to walk out of room.

Bro: Neng, isara mo ang pinto.
Maid turns around with tears in her eyes.
Maid: Kuya, h'wag po!!!
Bro: Gagah! Paglabas mo ng kwarto!!!

*My sis and cousin were organizing their respective albums and therefore, my room was a mess of their pics from babyhood to present. Another cousin picked a graduation picture of my sis' friend (who was the valedictorian) and said, "Wow, she graduated with honors"

Our maid then picked another graduation pic, of my sis this time, and said, "Wow, Grace, you graduated with flowers!"

*meron daw silang katulong tas nasa kusina yung maid tsaka mom niya tas nagiinit daw ng maintika yung mom niya. after ilang minutes sinabi nung mom ng gf ko dun sa maid nila na tignan kung mainit na yung mantika. tas bigla na lang daw sumigaw yung maid. tas sabay sabi ate mainit na!!! tas pagharap nung mom ng gf ko umiiyak yung maid.

yung pala ginamit yung kamay sa pagtesting nung mantika!!!

*bngyan yng maid ng chalk.yng chalk na pamatay ng ipis.sabi ng amo nya, kunin yng chalk, kiskis sa pader para mwala ang ipis. pagtingin ng amo nya sa pader may malaking nakasulat.........

*ang bagong maid ay kararating lang niya mula sa masbate, tag araw noon at mainit ang panahon kaya't binigyan namin siya ng coke ( malamig naman dahil galing sa fridge) at ang sabi e. " tenk you po siir,nag abala pa kayo..... pero.... bakit wala yatang yelo".

posted by Jax @ 6:21:00 PM   0 comments
hahaha! im just a sucker for these damn surveys! they're too long and they drive me crazy. but i love answering them!

Name: Jaclyn Ann T. Abergas
Nicknames: Jac, Jax, Jacquie, Jackloyd
Web alias: hazpafis, bugsbunny
Age: 22
Sex: female
Birthday: nov 5
Zodiac sign:Scorpio
Location: qc, philippines
Height: 5
Hair Color: black
Eye Color: dark brown
Siblings: 2 older brothers, 1 older sister and 1 sister-in-law
Hobbies: movies, music, writing
Girlfriend/Boyfriend: none
Crush: josh hartnett!
When and who was your 1st crush? one guy from menudo, i forgot his name already. or was it that kid in preschool?
What do you first notice about the opposite sex? height! haha.
One thing you really regret: i dont live a life of regrets
How romantic are you? am i romantic?
Dream Car: ford e-150, the black or blue one
School: ateneo de manila university
Any Pets: 7 dogs
Quote: kung gusto, maraming paraan. kung ayaw, maraming dahilan
Movies: hihintayin kita sa langit, bayaning third world, gladiator, todo sobre mi madre
TV show: friends!, sex and the city, six feet under
Color: blue, red, orange, green
Coke OR Pepsi: i dont drink soda
MTV OR VH1: mtv
Vanilla OR Chocolate: chocolate
Flowers OR Candy: flowers
Romantic or comedy?: comedy
Book or Magazine? book
TV OR Radio: Radio
Is the glass half full: yup
Shampoo I use: vaseline amino collagen, rejoice complete
Fave Shirt Color: white
Fave Year: the year i was born. :D 2001
I want: to make a big-budget film
Last dance: dance? as in dance or danced? if dance, grad ball. if danced, this morning in the shower
5yrs- finished with grad school
10yrs- probably have a family
15yrs-50 yrs - dunno. i dont like planning too much ahead. i gotta be flexible
WHAT BUGS ME: negativity, making excuses
WHAT SCARES ME: being useless
Got a perfect score on an exam? Yup.
Got everything you've wanted? No
Loved somebody so much it made you cry? yeah
Wished someone would just STOP bugging you and wish they'd die? no naman. i wouldn't go to that extent. although i want bush, saddam and the abu sayyaf to die already
Wished for the better? yup
Win the lottery? when i was in houston 7 years ago, i made a bet in their lottery. i won like $5 i think
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? no. i sleep with 6 pillows though
Marry any celebrity? josh hartnett!
If you were a crayon? yes?
Eat bugs? i'd eat gummy bugs. but real bugs? i dont think so.
One pillow or two? 6
Do you believe in aliens? no
How long are you in the shower? 10 minutes i think. i have a hard time choosing clothes to wear so i have to have more time for that. i mean, it can take me an hour to figure it out thats why i always get up around 2 hours before i have to leave
Thoughts on Britney Spears: makes me wanna dance
Do you have a lava lamp? no
Done drugs? never
Bestest friend you can trust: God
Worst subject: science
One word that describes me: ironic
Like disney? love it! im still trying to complete my collection
Favorite adventure: college was a big adventure. :)
Promised someone that you broke? yup and im not proud of that
Instruments played: none. im so musically-challenged!
Ambition: to be an executive producer of my own production company and to have a distribution company of foreign films in the philippines
Blink 182 or Sugar Ray? i dont like them both eh
Fave Cake: banana cake, chocolate mousse
Rain or Shine? shine
Summer or Winter? winter
Backstreet or 'Nsync? bsb!
Philippines or America? Philippines
Chinese food or Mexican food? mexican
Sport: basketball, swimming, badminton
Favorite memory: a lot. from college mostly
Somethin' i really hate: freaking BARNEY!
IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD IT BE? i would love to live in london or paris but i would love to build a house in nice, france, overlooking the french riviera
WHAT'S THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT? Hello Pain by The Pin-up Girls
WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? inside the movie theater
WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? car, on a really long trip
AT WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE IN THE MORNING? usually 8am if im going to the gym, 9 or 930a if im not
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? the microwave is my best friend
WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? i try not to get angry but people who dont make an effort and who always make excuses gets on my nerves
FAVORITE COLOR? blue, green, red, orange
DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? i dont believe in reincarnation but i believe in being with God after life has ended
FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? bsc, judy blume, roald dahl, dell-yearling books
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? christmas season, the cold season
IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE? to create more legal money and give it to those who really need it
IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? i dont have one
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? was reading Peter Pan but i seem to have lost my copy.
YOUR FAVORITE BOARD GAME? clue, pictionary
YOUR FAVORITE MAGAZINE? press, preview, entertainment weekly
FAVORITE SMELLS? cool water, freshly cut grass, freshly xeroxed paper
NON FAVORITE SMELLS? yosi din, sewer smell
FAVORITE SOUND? norah jones, coldplay, karlo & kaleb's laugh
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? helplessness, uselessness
HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE TELEPHONE? i dont usually answer the phone, i let somebody else answer the phone
MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE? God, everything else comes second
FAVORITE FOOD? japanese, mexican, chicken
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? uh, no. but i sleep with lots of pillows pa rin.
STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? irritating
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED WHAT WOULD IT BE? executive producer with my own production company
FAVORITE MOVIES? gladiator, todo sobre mi madre, hihintayin kita sa langit, bayaning third world
FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? basketball, swimming
WHAT IS YOUR JOB? freelance writer
IF YOU COULD BE SOMEONE ELSE FOR A DAY, WHO WOULD IT BE: i dont really know. i think i still want to be myself but my future self
WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST? this morning, i had garlic rice with daing
WHO INSPIRES YOU: God, family, friends
BEST MEMORY/MEMORIES TBC & college memories
WHAT CHARACTERISTICS DO YOU DESPISE:negativity, pessimism, uselessness
FRIZZY OR STILL WATER: still. hate frizzy water
WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHROOM: white with some patterns
WHERE WOULD YOU RETIRE: id like to retire in nice, france, overlooking the french riviera
CAN YOU JUGGLE, IF YES HOW MANY: two items...very slow :)
RED OR WHITE WINE: hate both. prefer champagne
WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: watched a movie, sweet home alabama i think, then dinner with fam.
WHERE DO YOU FOOD SHOP: grocery? cherry, rustans, ever or sm
WHAT IS/ARE YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE(S)? todo sobre mi madre, hihintayin kita sa langit, bayaning third world, gladiator
jazz, r&b, minsan rock, favorite artist - norah jones

posted by Jax @ 7:00:00 AM   0 comments
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